"My Letter To You (reworked)"

I might as well be blunt
I might as well be honest
My heart is confused
And inflicted with shame

I’m tainted by bloodshed
Marked by my weakness
Desire’s uneven
And never the same

I know you don’t know
I know you don’t mean it
But love is a trickster
With the perfect disguise

I’m eating my dreams
Digesting my lies
And drinking the tears
That fall from the sky

I tear down the wall
I just finished building
Only to find
You standing there

You reach out your hand
To build up my trust
You made me a promise
To always be here

I just can’t accept
The way that I feel
The pain I once felt
I can not relive

So I try to replace
What I found in you
But nothing compares
To the joy you give

But there are those times
When I get left out
I put in the effort
And feel like the clown

There are those days
That I fake a smile
Only so you
Don’t know that I’m down

Soon you’ll be gone
To start a new life
I can’t help to think
What the future will bring

We’ll say our good-byes
And recite our lines
Hoping that we
Don’t end with this spring