"A Lifetime's Revelation In One Year"

One year ago today
I lost everything
So many people came
Just to clutter up my life
So many people spoke
But said nothing of substance

I'm mortified to reminisce
Of those days fighting not to die
Fighting only to be isolated
And to relive every second
In my dreams
In my broken heart

Friends have come
Relationships broken
Lessons learned
A better person made
Friends became brothers
Along with the birthing of new possibilities

Day after day
I meet new people
People that I already know
Some of them are silenced
Some of them are hidden
But nonetheless live closed lives

I trusted some friends, family
They let me down
Expectation led me to despair
Confusion led me to destruction
Friendships were created in falsehoods
Life was just a mess

Experience makes for the perfect teacher
Openness makes the perfect student
Love is the best friend
Tragedy aids the greatest strength
Dreams provide sight
And fate sets the destination

Now I am bolder and wiser
Loss has become my companion
Death and I are no longer strangers
Life is getting easier
One day at a time
While time takes care of me

People will never comprehend
The depth to which I hurt
Or the magnitude of human interaction
On my mind
On my heart
In my reality

I cherish each person
That can have an impact on me
The way that impact
Can change a single life
Or that can make me feel
Beyond comprehension

I fall easily
But I don't stay down long
If you want me to care
You have to make me
I have no obligations to anyone
Except to myself

Six months ago
I would have stated differently
No one should expect from me
No one should be certain
That my words from yesterday
Mean the same thing today

So many people
Taught me about myself
Taking me to my limits
Expanding my horizons
Teaching me how to live
Helping me to live

I don't give myself any credit
I probably should
But all credit do to my little angel in heaven
The one I call mom
The one that I pray falls from heaven
Just to be with me once again

After all that I have been through
Nothing has had the affect
That love has had on me
And I've realized
Many of times throughout this last year
That love is on my side

Love has cradled me
In times of loneliness
Love has been my saving grace
It has unlocked an indestructible door
Love has been my reoccurring revelation
Throughout this last year of discovery

So as I end one year
Of triumph and defeat
I start a new life
Looking forward to opportunity
Salvation
And new manifestations.