"The Deception"

It's a luxury to be in a stable state of mind,
Ignoring the feelings locked so deep inside.
Oh how i dream of a day without these thoughts,
Where peace and disparity have continuously fought.

The acid from my tears burns streams down my face,
While hopes of a future inadvertently erase
Memories of pain, but a life, they're both the same.
Only a miracle could make this past remain.

I cement myself inside my own insecurities,
Only to please a woman with her own instabilities.
A woman who loves me almost like a mother
But breaks me down and charges me to act like another.

A fool I am to abandon what parents instilled,
Just to please a stranger who outlaws free will.
This stranger is all I have to take part in my illusion.
Until this problem is resolved, cursed am I in my confusion.