"Self"

I'm trapped in vast openness
Constrained by the opinions of others
Trying to individualize but not too much
I want to be accepted without assimilating
But is that possible when I'm always left out
I walk differently, I believe differently
I don't want to have to keep my secrets to myself
I don't want to have to fall in line
In order to make this machine operate perfectly
Life is not smooth and it's just an illusion to believe so
There will be distractions, things will fall out of place
Life stops for no one and death doesn't discriminate
Eventually I will break free of my constraints
A false mother's delusions
A privileged society's perfection
A worry free community
The joy of life is exploring different facets
And meeting people of different persuasions
For me at least
I challenge myself to be different
Sometimes I complete my challenge
Other times I fail miserably
I must admit that it can feel good to fit in
It can also be an unmeasurable burden
But whether you choose to step out on your own
Or to just be
Be happy with you
And don't let others dictate who that is